I'm not good at that. When I do something I want to do it 100% and be the best I can be. I also know that being 100% spot on all the time is an unrealistic expectation, but I continue to try and then beat myself up over the fact that I'm not perfect.
Too deep for you? I'm sorry. I'm in a funk, and right now I need to talk/cry it out.
I love teaching. I love working with kids. But anymore, I am not happy. I'm tired of working in a profession that is blamed for the ills of our nation. I'm tired of working in a profession that is being used as a political pawn..... politicians making a test that students must pass and if they don't it's the teacher's fault. I can't make a child do his/her homework, I can't make him/her study, I can't make him/her read, I can't insure that he/she will be in the right frame of mind to take an exam... let alone the high stakes tests. But when the child fails... it's my fault. So the state's answer is rush head-long into adopting the common core standards, only to now put them on hold... but still say we will be using a new test in two years... but we don't know what the standards are... but we have to be ready... but we don't know for what..... UGH!!!!!
Needless to say my attitude is bleeding over into other things. I am not finding any joy in working with my fabric. I can't focus on it I can't figure out what project I want to work on... if anything.
I am also worried about my grandson. Suddenly he is not doing well with his eating and sleeping. Erin is taking him to a new pediatrician who has brought up the possibility of reflux. I wish I were closer to them. I would love to be a Nana 100% of the time.... see, beating myself up again.
I apologize to anyone who is offended by this post. It's my blog and I feel I should be able to express my feelings/thoughts on it. The delete button is on your keyboard... feel free to use it. Right now I want to crawl into a dark space and close the door.
Have a good day!